Oh that's right, I have a blog

I haven't updated my blog since last October when I lived in Idaho and I think it's about time to start it up again since I've started a new chapter in my life..

Here's a bit of a timeline of what has happened since my last post..

September 26th: I get a call from my sister in Los Angeles. She's crying. She tells me my mother has been diagnosed with stage 3 inflammatory breast cancer.

September 29th: My husband I've been with for almost 5 years didn't come home all night from hanging out with his friends at the bar.. I called him numerous times only to get his voicemail.

September 30th: My husband comes home the next afternoon, says he's sorry but he passed out at his buddies. I believe him, didn't think of any other reason why he wouldn't come home, infidelity never crossed my mind.

Later that night I get an email from a friend who was at the bar in downtown Boise.She says she saw my husband there with his friends...and another girl. She tells me he was with the girl the whole night and my husband left the bar alone with that girl.
I confront him, he says he's sorry, he was drunk and someone gave him a pill.He doesn't know what happened other than he woke up at her house but he strongly believes he didn't sleep with her. I believe him.

October 1st: I email my friend back and tell her I believe his story. She tells me that he's lying and he wasn't drugged, he seemed normal. I confront my husband again...hours after crying and arguing he admits he cheated on me with her and he knows her from myspace.

October 2nd: My son has his appointment with a developmental pediatrician.I had the car this day and I wanted to go alone since I was pissed off at my husband, but I realized there was no gas in the car and I needed money. So I pick up my husband from work, I ignore him the whole ride to the clinic. We take our son to this important appointment. My son is diagnosed with Autism.

Heartbroken with my moms breast cancer, my husbands infidelity, and my sons diagnosis with autism I beg my husband to stay with me and to never talk to the other girl again. He promised.

October 3rd: I've talked about moving back to Los Angeles before all of this happened but today I made it clear I wanted to go back. My husband agreed. We both plan to move down to help my mother out, and for us to get away from all the drama in Idaho.

October 14th: My husbands cell is ringing and the caller id says a guys name I've never heard of before. I look at the number, and it's the girl he cheated with. I already knew her number because I looked at the phone bill a few days before and my husband admitted it was hers. I throw the phone to my husband..I argue with him later, he apologizes, I forgive him and tell him to delete his myspace and her phone number. He says he will.

This happens several more occasions throughout the weeks and I kept forgiving him because I wanted our marriage to work for our sons sake.

October 30th: Hubby and I have a discussion about the movie to Los Angeles. He feels the smart thing to do is to move me and Maddox down first until I get a job, that way we both won't be unemployed. I say "ok!"

November 11th: I'm fed up with my husband, he continues to talk to the other girl. He stops having sex with me and doesn't pick up the phone when I call him while he's at work during the day and while I'm at work during the night.

November 12th: Hubby comes home from work. Here's how the conversation went from what I can remember:


Husband: "Do you need anything from the store?"
Me: "Not yet, why? Are you going out?"
Husband: "I'm going out of town for a few days?"
Me: (crying) "What are you talking about? Where are you going?!"
Husband: "I'm going to Portland for a few days"
Me: "What?! Why? Are you going with her?! What the fuck is wrong with you?"
Husband: "I'm not fucking going with her, I just need to get a way for a bit"
Me: "What are you talking about?! Why are you going with her? Why are you doing this to me? I've been nothing but nice to you through all of this"
Husband: "I'm not fucking going with her! I'm going to fucking meet her there"
Me: "No, I'm not allowing you to go. You're not taking our car. You can have your friends drive you there"
Husband: "Oh, you fucking think so huh? You think I need your permission? I'm going...I'll be back in a couple of days to get the rest of my stuff"

He finds a suitcase I packed with my clothes for California and throws them on the ground. Puts his clothes in there instead and takes the things that are most important to him...his bongs, his guitars,his cds,and the computer modem.

He comes downstairs where I am on the couch crying and Maddox is watching a movie..Kneels down to Maddox and kisses him. He says "I'm sorry Maddox"...Husband walks out the door and takes our only car.

That's the last time we saw him........

November 12-14th: My best friends were there for me through all of this. My very very very good friend Rahel stayed with me every night and made all the arrangements for me including getting a storage unit,renting a uhaul truck, getting our highschool coworkers to bring their trucks to help move stuff,and driving me to the airport. My sister bought me and Maddox a one way plane ticket to Los Angeles.

November 15th: I leave Idaho and arrive back home in Los Angeles.

I lived in Idaho for 7 years so I went through a bit of a culture shock again when I moved to North Hills.

Present Day: I have a job now and I've decided to start reading books again. My mom is still going through chemo but she is doing better. I'm going to start eating healthy since I've gained weight due to all that drama. I've also been exercising everyday and I plan on playing basketball every Saturday with my friend.

I'm on the road to finding myself once again..
I also miss writing, something I haven't done since Jr High..

Oh and I'm in love with Jonathan Rhys Meyers...Yea, so?
He will be mine, oh yes, he will be mine
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