The Big 4

You have no idea how bad I want to go to see The Big 4 festival!!
It's a concert you HAVE to go to

Hello Hello Hellloooooooo

Guess who is going to spend her time Bloggin' instead of flirting with the gents' and ladies? This girl right here!

I've had a pretty bad weekend along with a pretty bad year. Let's start with my year... I've gained 20lbs, it sucks! I also miss my mom a ton. I'm also struggling with my finances since I am no longer making overtime. Let's not forget to mention that damn $353 parking ticket I received the other week, ugh!
Now my weekend was shitty because I was depressed. I was sad about my ugly weight gain, also said about my friend who texted me saying he had to leave town because he was having thoughts of suicide. I couldn't help but cry, I just hate knowing there is someone suffering and there is nothing I can do to help. I hate to see people suffering physically but most of all mentally. Mental Illness is not pretty, it's a horrible disability. From him texting me that lead to thoughts of my mom suffering during her last months with Breast Cancer and her quick but long drawn-out hard to witness death. I cancelled on a date with a nice guy Saturday night because I was just so sick with depression. I decided to get out for a few hours with my sister and head to the batting cages to get my spirit up. It helped a little, but once I went back to my apartment, it was back to the loneliness.
All I can do is pray that my friend will see the light and realize life is beautiful even though it has it's ups and downs.

I am so turned off with dating/sex right now since I broke it off with the older guy. I thought he was quite a gentleman in the beginning but soon realized he was 48 years old and single for a reason. He tries to play the playa game, and I'm not going to stick around for that shit. I deserve to be treated better than that. As far and I know, he was lucky to have had a chance with me, and he blew it. That dog.

So I'm spending my time focusing on my mind,body,and soul. I am going to start going to Weight Watcher meetings again to get a refresher since I've been struggling with staying motivated  on my fitness and food choices. I think it'll will be great and who doesn't love getting little stickers/prizes each time they lose 5lbs?
Summer is coming, I need to look good! I need to show off my arms and not wear black as much. 
woohoo, can't wait for Summer!

I'm also hoping my promotion does happen with the pay raise I asked for. Haha. I asked for a big pay raise, I doubt I'll get it, but hey, never hurts to try :)

I'll update more later, Ciao!