Hello Hello Hellloooooooo

Guess who is going to spend her time Bloggin' instead of flirting with the gents' and ladies? This girl right here!

I've had a pretty bad weekend along with a pretty bad year. Let's start with my year... I've gained 20lbs, it sucks! I also miss my mom a ton. I'm also struggling with my finances since I am no longer making overtime. Let's not forget to mention that damn $353 parking ticket I received the other week, ugh!
Now my weekend was shitty because I was depressed. I was sad about my ugly weight gain, also said about my friend who texted me saying he had to leave town because he was having thoughts of suicide. I couldn't help but cry, I just hate knowing there is someone suffering and there is nothing I can do to help. I hate to see people suffering physically but most of all mentally. Mental Illness is not pretty, it's a horrible disability. From him texting me that lead to thoughts of my mom suffering during her last months with Breast Cancer and her quick but long drawn-out hard to witness death. I cancelled on a date with a nice guy Saturday night because I was just so sick with depression. I decided to get out for a few hours with my sister and head to the batting cages to get my spirit up. It helped a little, but once I went back to my apartment, it was back to the loneliness.
All I can do is pray that my friend will see the light and realize life is beautiful even though it has it's ups and downs.

I am so turned off with dating/sex right now since I broke it off with the older guy. I thought he was quite a gentleman in the beginning but soon realized he was 48 years old and single for a reason. He tries to play the playa game, and I'm not going to stick around for that shit. I deserve to be treated better than that. As far and I know, he was lucky to have had a chance with me, and he blew it. That dog.

So I'm spending my time focusing on my mind,body,and soul. I am going to start going to Weight Watcher meetings again to get a refresher since I've been struggling with staying motivated  on my fitness and food choices. I think it'll will be great and who doesn't love getting little stickers/prizes each time they lose 5lbs?
Summer is coming, I need to look good! I need to show off my arms and not wear black as much. 
woohoo, can't wait for Summer!

I'm also hoping my promotion does happen with the pay raise I asked for. Haha. I asked for a big pay raise, I doubt I'll get it, but hey, never hurts to try :)

I'll update more later, Ciao!